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Monday, November 10, 2014

When we were 19

‘Cause I sometimes think that when we are already old,
you will still slide your finger from my forehead down to my nose
and maybe when we are already old,
you will still love me the way you loved me when we were 19.

I wonder how God formed the stars to lead me to you
Or how He formed this so-called love to fit your hands to mine
for the second time.

This thing inside my chest has come to life again,
beats for a thousand of times in hearing your voice,
just like the first time when we were 19
and when my head feels the comfort of your warm shoulder.

I wonder how God answered my prayers
Or how He took the pain and replace with it with your loving hands
for the second time.

‘Cause I always think of growing old with you
under the comforting stars of the best nights like we’re always dreaming of.
And maybe when we are already old,
your wrinkled hand will still hold my wrinkled hand, too.
Just like the first time you held it when we were 19.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

This Love is Different

“I love this kind of love that we have. It’s plain and simple yet the impact in our hearts is so beautiful”

Love songs are starting to play… again.

I buried the nights I thought pain would not leave. There is no sudden change but I never notice the changes each day brought me. Love is here once again. It welcomed me to the fact that I am not to escape pain, and so does healing.

His love didn’t heal me but his love made me feel that I can overcome pain. And when I did, I knew it was love knocking on my door once again. This kind of love is different. It’s plain and simple yet the impact in our hearts is so beautiful. He is not my everything but I adore how he makes me feel that I can do everything. He’s not the best part of me but he’s helping me to bring out my own best. He accepts my flaws and imperfections. And because he does, I learn how to become better.

This love is different, it’s different because just as he does for me, my love for him understands, supports, and embraces the pieces of him which others may find uninteresting. I have a different view of love now. It’s mature and I feel content about it. There are no roller coasters of emotions, late night cries, and worry-abouts.

I already lost him once; I never want to lose him again :)